Had a VERY early night last night. Lack of joy combined with low gas & electric meant i had an early night. Feel so much better for it too.

2Day.........I hear you scream NO after you've read this, but, i'm going out for drinks with my ex & his mum for his b/day which is 2moro. Havn't seen or spoken to him in nrly 3 weeks. "Rollercoaster" of emotions isn't the word.

Don't know how i'll feel when i actually see him, but, atm i feel fine about it. I just know it's going to be difficult. I've told his mum to let him know we aren't to speak about any personal stuff........So what the hell are we going to talk about!!!!.

Well, if it's shit, or i can't deal with it, i'll just walk.

Reports l8a, Should be interesting if things don't go to plan. ie no personal stuff