It's wednesday morning, i've just woken up but i didn't goto bed till 5am.....2much on my mind.

I need to be self motivated, but i need to have some kind of motivation to be motivated, if that makes sense.

I know, i should think myself lucky when there is so much war famine death & destruction in the work but no, i'm gonna be miserable & feel sorry for myself for a while then i'll.

"Run just as fast as i can, to the middle of no where to the middle of my frustrated fears."

I wouldn't be the man i am 2day if it wasn't for 1 man, but then again i wouldn't have been the man i was because of him either. Why do we allow ourselves to build something up when, as usual, there is always gonna be a big fall. He came into my life, gave me reason, brought me out of depression. Showed me that with a reason there was hope. Now there is no reason. Why can i do things for others but not for myself ??

I know what i have to do, Forget & move on.......I need some1, not something for me to move on. It's always been the way.

I have two business' that can change my life, 1 dramatically. But the people i know (all in their 20's) are unable to afford the investment. But any business requires investment. I see the business working with the people who i'm working with, but, they are older & have a greater disposable income. Now is the right time for investment.

A little info about Agel Enterprises http://www.onlinepbr.com/

Over 40 countries in 2 years. Now thats AMAZING !!

Just doing this has helped, is helping......Rant Over !!

"i'm gonna smile cos i deserve to"